What if?

What if I started blogging again? It has been over six months since my last post. I think Facebook sucked me in and I neglected my blog. Also, I ran out of things to say. Maybe I have a little more to say now.

It is Independence Day. We have our U.S. flag out in front of the house. I have chicken tikka marinading in the fridge. I will also grill some portabella mushrooms and asparagus.

We spent a year in an apartment in NoVa and recently purchased and moved into a townhouse. I am now a real live suburban housewife.

I have started volunteering at a local center that assists low income people/families, and Inshallah I will start working there as a part time employee after Ramazan while my kids are in school. D. will be starting kindergarten, and A. will start pre-school. I haven’t told anyone about the job yet. I wanted to teach ESL at a local college or institute, but nobody called me back for an interview. So I figured a position like this in which I get to do community service and also which allows me to work only during school hours would be best. I am excited about the employment…and the paychecks, small as they may be.

Life is well. I am off to start the chimney for my charcoal grill. Happy Fourth of July!

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Tracy López Says:

July 4, 2012 at 3:02 pm

What great news! Felicidades on the new townhouse and new job!

PS – Send me some of that Chicken Tikka. Yum!

xcwn Says:

July 15, 2012 at 3:41 pm

Yay, you’re back!

lights Says:

July 16, 2012 at 2:07 pm

Allah ! You never wrong mankind in anything , but mankind wrong themselves. (Yunus : 44) You reveal of the Quran that which is a healing and a mercy for believers, (Al-Isra : 82) a balm for that which is in the breasts , (Yunus : 57) a light whereby You guide him who seeks Your good pleasure unto paths of peace. You want to bring us out of darkness unto light and guide us unto a straight path. (Al-Maidah : 15-16) I was in darkness. I wronged myself. I looked for a healing and peace elsewhere. I was dead until You raised me unto life and set for me a light wherein I walk among men. (Al-An’am : 122) Many of mankind are evil livers, as You say, O Allah. I was one of them, because I lacked certainty in my belief. (Al-Maidah : 49-50) That’s not an excuse, though. I did read the Quran, in which you have displayed for mankind all kinds of similitudes. But I had to be tried again and again until I saw the light. It was a long time before I listened to Your call : “O man! What hath made thee careless concerning thy Lord, the Bountiful, Who created thee, then fashioned, then proportioned thee? Into whatsoever form He will, He casteth thee.” (Al-Infitar : 6-8) You said, O Lord, to Your beloved Prophet : “And though thou try much, most men will not believe.” (Yusuf : 103) “And most of them believe not in Allah except that they attribute partners (unto Him) .” (Yusuf : 106) And You said, O Lord : “(It is) the truth from the Lord of you (all). Then whosoever will, let him believe, and whosoever will, let him disbelieve.” (Al-Kahf : 29) I want to believe, O Lord ! I want to be a slave of Yours. I want to be near You. But I will not unless (it be) that You will, O Lord of Creation. (At-Takwir : 29) O Lord ! whenever You try man by honouring him, and are gracious unto him, he says: My Lord honoured me. But whenever You try him by straitening his means of life, he says: My Lord despised me.” (Al-Fajr : 15-16) I am sorry for what I said. I regret what I hid in my heart and mind. “Man is made of haste, ” (Al-Anbiyaa : 37) as You say, O Lord. You created man anxious, fretful when evil befalls him, and, when good befalls him, grudging; save worshippers who are constant at their worship (…)” (Al-Ma’arij : 19-26) Man even prays for evil as he prays for good; for man was ever hasty. (Al-Isra : 11) I am not trying to look for excuses. I wronged myself, O Lord, and I beg Your pardon.

Unto You, O Allah, belongs the sovereignty of the heavens and the earth. You create what You will. You bestow female (offspring) upon whom You will, and bestow male (offspring) upon whom You will; or You mingle them, males and females, and You make barren whom You will.” (Ash-Shura : 49-50) To You, O Lord, I turn and pray. I beg Your pardon.

I perform no act but You are Witness of me when I am engaged therein. And not an atom’s weight in the earth or in the sky escapes You, O Lord, nor what is less than that or greater than that, but it is (written) in a clear Book.” (Yunus : 61-66) So I turn to You, and nobody else.
“Verily the friends of Allah are (those) on whom fear (comes) not, nor do they grieve. Those who believe and keep their duty (to Allah). Theirs are good tidings in the life of the world and in the Hereafter.” (Yunus : 61-66) That’s what I aspire to, O Lord. Is it not unto You, O Allah, that belongs whosoever is in the heavens and whosoever is in the earth?” (Al-Mulk : 14) Whether I like it or not, I belong to You. And I like to belong to You. I like to be a slave of Yours. There is none in the heavens and the earth but comes unto You as a slave. You know us and numbered us with (right) numbering. And each one of us will come unto You on the Day of Resurrection, alone. (Maryam : 93-95) I want to be a slave of Yours here, before the Day of Resurrection. I want to be a slave of Yours every day of my life.

Mizhi Says:

July 19, 2012 at 4:58 am

I dont know if you already have for ESL you need to take a certain course that qualifies you to teach ESL and prefarably have any batchlors degree or above. The course is only a half year course and is somewhat resonably priced.
Did you already take it?

luckyfatima Says:

July 20, 2012 at 9:33 pm
Thanks. Yep I have an MA in adult ESL education. No certificate for primary school/younger learners, though. I may just have to get me one of those!

Katrina owiso Says:

July 21, 2012 at 8:08 pm

Lucky first i like your name and about dancing i think you will teach me your dance moves.I think teaching is the best thing to do i myself loves it, cause am planning to become 1.

Roshni Says:

July 22, 2012 at 10:31 am

Lol; I can’t quite visualise you as a suburban housewife! Just don’t lose your holistic side in favour of convention! Good luck with the job; and please, I beg you; please get back to blogging again! Its not the same without you! And as your posts were often my motivation, I’ve not been blogging either! So hope to see more from you; take care; remember us in your duas this ramadhan.